sadness overwhelming

simply sadness...

2009-03-04T07:58:00.000-08:00

i did not ask for alot...juz a simple request....juz a simple suggestion...juz a simple ans....juz a simple hope...juz a simple wish...juz a simple dream...
and yet...i do not feel right...i juz have a simple feeling...n knowin the truth juz makes it more complicated....wad issit tat i truly want???i lack courage...i lack confidence...i lack experience...i lack certainty....something....juz something does not feel right...

thousands of masks....thousands of me...in search of the real face...in search of the real me...

the day ends as i close the tabs and windows one by one....the only one left....

start regretting wad i had done today.....nvr once a sense of pride or achievement exist...

a simple post....a simple ending....

sadness that truly touches deep into your heart....

2009-02-27T07:18:00.000-08:00

i care for those who care abt my existence....i give to those who give others...i pray for those who need the prayers...i forgive those who forgive themselves....

in order to have your dreams fulfilled, you must first have a dream. if you throw away your thoughts, nothing will happen to you. thats why you have to continue wishing without giving up. thats what they say is the first big step to accomplishing your dreams.

theres no such things as miracles in this world. only accidents and inevitabilities exist, and the actions that one takes. those that seek a miracle will never experience one. the hand of salvation only extends to those that try to make miracles happen. continue believing...

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a wind blows through the city. the wind is cold, and at times, it may make you want to stop. when that time comes, i want you to continue moving forward, no matter how slowly. you'll definitely reach it someday. even if sad things happen, you will be fine. if you reach out your hand, someone will be there. because we can share warmth. even if you are alone in a tough journey, as long as you dont let go of the hand you hold onto, you'll definitely triumph. thats why you should never give up. at the end of the long,long road, happiness awaits you. happiness gather together and becomes an even greater happiness. one day, i want you to realise this: you've experienced plenty of happiness when you walked down this road. never forget, you are not alone. carve your confident footsteps into the ground, transcend the seasons, and look up towards the sky. even without wings, you'll make it... to that dream you saw one day, that dream of a future, overflowing with light---

its been sadness....

2009-01-26T07:46:00.000-08:00

its been so long since the last post...so long....too long....m i juz lazy to blog??or i does not even care abt my existence???
its been almost a yr since i started tis blog...the second chinese new yr since i started bloggin....nothing much change....nothing much remain the same....today, an occasion whr a reunion bring abt happiness...but i hav came to realise 1 thing abt myself...im juz a selfish bastard...i do not care abt how others feel...i only think abt myself....no wonder....no wonder every1 find it difficult to talk to me...no wonder every1 ignore me...no wonder no one laughed....no wonder i despise myself...i tried my best...really???
its been half a mth since i started my jc2 yr....have i rly achieved anything yet????nth motivates me now...jc2 yr....probably the most impt yr of my life....but i dun even giv a dam...i now tis way of thinking is wrg....but why....why do it still carry on thinkin tat way....why???

look upon the starry sky....wad do u see?beautiful stars shining across the sky???i only c darkness covering the sky....

sadness...at the back of happiness

2008-12-10T08:52:00.000-08:00

back frm sarawak...although its juz a short 8 days trip, it has been a meaningful one...everything is back to normal...but somehow it seems different...nothing has changed...but something in me has changed...back to doin the same old stuff....realise how pathetic i can get...i cant help but to think tat my 17 yrs of life is more meaningless than the 8days trip...a life full of fake laughter...i only hope to c tat those ard me are not like me...i dunno wad they r thinkin...i dunno wad they have done...i dunno wad they want...but i juz hope tat they will cherish every moemnt of their life n live happily...

i love to be at the back...

sometimes learning to let go will help u realise wad u truly desire...forgive n u will c ur true self...forget n u will learn to love others...life is cruel...life is unfair...life is short....cherish every moment of ur life...help others n u will help urself...sadness is not gonna help u...identify it...slowly bring it to the back....remember...the happy moments...

nothing....not even sadness...

2008-11-28T02:20:00.000-08:00

yup....nothing...i dun feel anything...no curiosity...no excitement...no desire...no hope...not even sadness...

10 min of sadness can kill

2008-11-06T02:51:00.000-08:00

so long since i blog the last post...n now im bloggin for tml op.wad a sad guy....tml die...ya...been practicin for so long but somehow i've got a bad feelin abt tml...n tis bad feelin has nvr failed to ruin my life ever since i was born...its juz tat everytime i tot of something bad...it will come true...when i tot of something gd...it will not come true...is it a talent??haiz...juz 10 min to decide my fate,my future,my life etc...my presentation seem to pass the limited time oso,tml is it n i dunno how to solve this prob...

gd morning assessors and student audience, im ..........

fate....is sad?

2008-10-09T08:13:00.000-07:00

been a while since i came here...life is sad as usual...lots of things happenin at home...haiz...hope everyone can be like before...but theres a scar tat will not make these happen..i noe...but foe once lets juz forget abt the sad truth n live on like in the past...hope everything will be fine...

all it takes is juz 1 word to end it all...

y is the truth always so sad??issit bcos of human nature?or issit juz tat we are too complacent or even lazy?been worryin abt my promos results these few days...how demoralising when the teachers r goin through the papers...1 word always in my mind...'die'...hope i can survive n not retain...i noe the heavy consequences of this matter...it is now them i start regrettin wad i hav done the wks b4 the promos...as usual....

addicted to spammin movies to keep my mind away frm the sad truth...
hot fux rox to the core!!!

the sadness has begun to detroy my life...

2008-08-11T10:11:00.000-07:00

my life is goin way down...

die...

another sad day...

2008-07-27T03:07:00.000-07:00

lets start wif a haiz....haiz....as usual...lots of problems....no money can be a very sad sad thing....n lots of movie i wanna watch...but no money....haiz....the mummy, hellboy II, wedding daze, meet dave etc etc....juz watched dark knight yesterday....ok la...not tat bad...juz tat the movie is like nvr ending, u tot it will end...the next moment another enemy appear...1st time feel my butt pain watching a movie....haiz....

juz realised the pic on the top of my blog looks alot like my table....as messy as ever...n i juz realised tat ....haha....wad a crappy guy i m.....but tis is wad feels like home...rite?feels great talkin to myself...so fun....

in times of danger....wad do u rely on?? ur instincts or others advice??

too sad to be tired...

2008-07-21T05:31:00.000-07:00

juz realize i haven blog for a long time....thing r not goin the rite way tis few days....or shld i say thing have nvr been goin the rite way....tired....so tired....too tired....dam tired....had kayaking course the last wkend, bcos os tat i m so tired now...bcos of tat i cant slp now...bcos of tat i hav so much work to do...bcos of tat my whole body is aching....bcos of tat i have sun burn...n i hav a crappy instructor for the course....ya i seem to hav alot of fate wif crap...loads of crap....haiz...tml hav to wake up at 5....god noes when im gonna die....

nvr a sad bday...only a busy 1...

2008-07-12T10:53:00.000-07:00

crap...my bday over le....intend to blog early....but...haiz....mr ang gave me hell lot of presents...12 essays....haiz....nvr slp for so long...dam tired....nvr had such a busy bday in my life b4...juz when i intend to feel sad for my the whole day....i spent abit of my time wif my family...n tat alone can satisfy me...haiz....such happy moments....ya....n those truly great frenz who wish me happy bday...haha thx alot....n thx alot so the dam very much to mr ang for givin me such wonderful presents....

3hrs

the sad sad regrets

2008-07-05T09:11:00.000-07:00

got back my results....seriously not happy abt it....well....i noe i deserved all these....haiz....regrettin at the last min....not bad....still addicted to gaming...halleluyah...maybe jc life is not suitable for me...but den again....i hav no other choice....haha....die....

sometimes the gd news can be sadder den the bad news....

how sad can it get?

2008-06-29T08:05:00.000-07:00

haiz....back to studies w/o any break after the exams....time for the second stage of hell....gettin back the papers...worst den the 1st part of hell...die...tis time surely die....screwed up everything...haiz...things r not goin as i planned...everything is messed up....my mind is in a mess...i look ard me n all i c are the problems caused by wad i had done....wad have i done???seriously....i wanna noe....wad went wrg....

oh ya....the ans the the deductive qn....

Ken - Alaska, Russian, dog
Don - Maine, French, chinchilla
Frank - Montana, Spanish, turtle
Jenny - Oklahoma, English, hamster

i miss wad i dun wanna miss....

sad...sad...sad...sad...

2008-06-25T07:23:00.000-07:00

i juz screwed up my best subject....im giving up le....

the sad sad hell nearing.....

2008-06-19T05:39:00.000-07:00

YAY....as usual....slackin all day long...hidin in the rm...lookin at the tv screen...layin on the bed...i suddenly came to realise tat i hav missed the gd old secondary sch life....how peaceful...haha...feel like laughin at myself rite now...

i look at the ceiling

i stood up

i walk towards the mirror

i look into the mirror

i saw my lips moving.....

(the ans for the qn frm previous post will be up by the next post.....)

lets play a sad sad game

2008-06-13T03:22:00.000-07:00

Great news guys!i hav not touched my bks since the hols!!!yay.....my brain is rotting le....yay...so...lets play a simple deductive game!!!yay!!!

Heres the qn:
Don, Frank, Jenny, and Ken each come from one state,either Alaska, Maine, Montana, or Oklahoma. They each speakone primary language, either English, French, Russian, orSpanish. And they each have one of four pets, a chinchilla,a dog, a hamster, or a turtle.
1. Frank needed a language book to write to the Alaskan.
2. The kid from Oklahoma has a mammal for her pet.
3. The Alaskan found his pet outside his door in a snow bank.
4. The French speaking boy lives east of Oklahoma.
5. The Russian speaking boy wants to write to the kid from Montana, but he doesn't speak his language.
6. Don bought his pet in Peru.
7. Ken does not own a hamster.
8. The dog's owner wrote a letter in Russian to the kid in Oklahoma, but she couldn't understand it.
9. Don had to travel west to meet Jenny.
10. Frank is learning Spanish at school.

xtra info:
Chinchillas are rabbit-sized, crepuscular rodents native to the Andes mountains in South America.

Infos tat u dunno ppls find urself on ur own.

oh ya btw.....this is juz for fun....no prize given...so dun come to me to ask for prize...maybe...

haiz....lets slp.....

as the sadness goes by

2008-06-07T07:05:00.000-07:00

whay!!!no more lessons le...so happy....yet so sad....im in a official hols mood le....n tats wad sadden me....despite noein the fact tat the days of exam is nearin....i still dun giv a dam abt my studies.....playin all day long.....in front of the com whole day long....tv on whole day long....slpin all day long....HAHAHAhahahaaaaa........haiz.....deep down in my heart i noe tat i muz start doin....but i juz cant start studyin....every AFTERNOON i wake up immediately sit in front of com liao.....wad a no life guy....haiz.....ya im supposed to study 6mths worth of studying in juz 2 wks....halleluyah.....haiz....die die die....ya die.....seriously.....die.....haiz....die......

tml's gonna be a sad sad day

2008-05-27T08:03:00.000-07:00

i feel like cryin as seconds goes by....this means tat tml is nearing every seconds....3 consecutive lectures, 2 tests, 1 interview,phototakin session and bowling training....the tests is enough to kill me le...here i m tryin to squeeze everything into my brain but i cant seem to memorise anything...i can forget everything in juz seconds....as i type tis sentence...i m forgettin everything i hav learned for the past 3 hrs....halleluyah...oh praise the lord....haiz....i lost my notes somemore....cant even study everything....study abit here n dere....tis is crap....i feel like dying......

........................................................................................................................ ...........................................ok i have forgotten everything le....yay.....I WANNA SLEEP.....haiz...for once i feel like slpin....but i cant slp....i regretted not slpin when i hav the chance to ......haiz...im not gonna slp until i can squeeze at least 1 small part of one small section of 1 of the subjects into my braib...i will be dam satisfied if i can do it.....if.......a very big IF.....tml's interview for GCE i oso dunno wad to say somemore...i dun rly hav any particular reasons for goin sarawak....juz feel like goin....but i cant say tat....die liao...muz think of a good reason to convince them somemore....my brain is rotting le....no wonder my rm is so smelly....i dun feel like goin to bowlin training...i will sure be very tired 1....since i tired means i will not bowl properly....i will not bowl properly means tat i will be wastin my $6...wastin my $6 means i hav to commence survival training again...commencing survival training means i want to cry....i wan to cry means i feel like dyin...i feel like dyin means gg for me le....yay.....feel like laughin at myself....lets juz hope tat i will not die tml....for the sake of those who hate me....pls do not pray for me.....ya my table is in a mess....

my hand hurts....

too sad(lazy) to blog

2008-05-21T07:15:00.000-07:00

haiz....so long nvr blog le....dunno wad to blog abt...so many things happen tis few days....sad sad things....addicted to psp once again...i can say halleluyah to my mid yr exam le....ok its psp time once again.....

i hate this sad sad stupid unlucky day

2008-05-12T06:39:00.000-07:00

haiz.....lazy to blog tis few days sia.....sat i jusz manage to break my own record....ran for 12 km(30 rounds ard the track) non-stop...ran for 1hr15min....all my frenz pangseh me sia...in the end only i run alone in the mornin wif noone ard.....a sad guy indeed.....

i shldnt be alive.....haiz....tis mornin goin to sch tat time almost died...serious...i saw cars approachin....tot i can cross....so i ran across....but halfway my phone drop...the next sec the cars were juz metres away frm me....they start hornin...i juz stand still in the middle of the rd....the car appraochin steer to my left.....n almost hit the side....i seize the chance n quickly run....haiz....i think i shld die sia.....even jackie chan not as pro as me....now the scene still keep appearin in my mind....headlights shining on my face n the sound of their horns.....the guiltiness in me will stay dere forever.......

tml hav econs lecture test n i dun even hav the feel to study....reached home at 5 n stone till 6...ate dinner still 7 n play psp till now......gg le....my test for tml....essay test somemore...dammit...everytime i lift up my econs bk....theres always something to keep me frm readin.....im feelin so dam down now....i seriously dunno wad to do....i feel so dam lost now...

i may not wad it seem to be.....

a sad sad announcement

2008-05-05T08:42:00.000-07:00

i hereby officially announce tat i m completely lost in my studies...dunno wad the hell is the teacher talkin abt....still figuring out the qns for tutorials a long time ago...have no idea wad my frenz r learnin....clueless of wad im supposed to learn....i guess my luck is used up by now....lets say gd bye to my moments of tyconess n welcome the beginning of living hell n the sad sad real truth....ya...its time to c my real abilities...which is no abilities at all....haiz

i shall meet u in the days when the sun is shining like nvr before n at tat time i promise i will give all my best to let ur wishes come true.....

hmmm...interestin....wads tat.....

sadness comes in seconds

2008-05-02T05:00:00.000-07:00

2 days of hols is over...juz like tat....the hols tat we hav longed for is gone in seconds....haiz....i did not even noe wad i had done durin the 2 days....n w/o any warnin...its gone....haha...at least i managed to slp durin the hols.....one of my main objectives to do in the hols....i slept for like 14 hrs in a day....slept for 3 hrs in the afternoon....n 10 hrs the next day.....so 27 hrs of slp for 2 days....ahhh....so satisfied...no feel to do hw again...but im not gonna regret tis time...cos i wanna enjoy tis hols...so i muz chiong after tis wk...omg...haiz....wad can i do as the days of hell torture is nearing??i shall do wad i love to do....n tat is to stone....yay...

i shall continue to stone....until the next sunrise....

pls take away my sadness

2008-04-29T08:40:00.000-07:00

here i m not slpin once again.....to do my pw once again.....shitty pw teacher....he made an appoinment wif him 1st n now he say he cant consult us cos other classes need more help...wad crap is tis??he think differently veryday....he can tell u one thing....another different thing the next day.....tis is alrdy over the lvl of stupidity.....it is now a matter of proness.....wad crap....haiz.....tis is juz the begginin of pw n lots of problems r happenin.....die die die.......die liao....gg.....

had a freaking ulcer juz rite under my tongue....1st time had ulcur under my tongue....feel dam weird....dam pain oso....its all bcos of pw.....lack of slp.....haiz....i still haven recover all bcos of pw.....

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the sad sad pen

2008-04-25T05:16:00.000-07:00

juz realised i cant use such a fine pen....due to my violence....haha....keep tearin my paper while writin with it.....wasted $2......feel like crying.....haiz....tml wkend still hav to go back sch....for test somemore.....feel like dying.....im sick but i still cant find a chance to hav a gd rest....wth....feel like slping.....im dam confused n i dunno wad the hell im doin....i serously dunno wad to do....someone....anyone....pls ignore me.....wad the hell m i writing.......

my life is screwed.....

the sad sad days

2008-04-23T08:34:00.000-07:00

tests tests n more tests....hw hw n more hw...revisions revisions n more revisions....typical jc life....haiz....can i take the pressure??i got sick again...tis is the 1st time i got sick so many times in less den six mths....did i rly push myself tat hard??i still dun think so...coz i c other ppl workin alot harder den me....den y do i still fell sick??issit my time management sux??or issit bcos of my reckless actions???

ytd i had the crappiest test ever...didnt finish a dam bloody freakin qn....its seriously not my fault...other ppl cant finish it too....the time given is short like hell??cant the teachers notice??i bet they oso cant even do finish the test within the time limit la....pls la....tats y i say tis dam bloody jc sux at organizin......

i bought a 0.28 pen today.....great at writing chinese....lol...but i realise i write alot slower den usual using tat pen to write...shld i use it for tml econs test??or shld i not??

i like her laughter...the peace i hav been searchin for...but i dun even hav the ability to make her smile...

ZZZZZZZZZZ-_-ZZZZZZZZZZ
wanna slp....but hav to study....

sadness nvr fails to make me sad

2008-04-20T01:03:00.000-07:00

had hell lot of hw tis few days...lots of tests comin up n i still hav no idea wad the hell m i supposed to study.......been busy tis few days...finally found this 5 min to blog.....sadz....dam freaking tired....

my survival training:survive wif only $20 for 3wks
currents status:last day!!!so happy yet so sad...
$5 remaining
im wanna get broke

i have came to realise tat its human nature to spend money when u hav the money....we cant ctrl the temptation to spend money....after today i gonna get my allowance....but if i c tat im spendin money like tml is the day i die...den i think i gonna do the survival training again...

the sad sad games

2008-04-13T09:19:00.000-07:00

ADDICTED TO MY PSP!!!!!!!NO HW IS DONE!!!!!!!!ok i wanna play liao...sayonara...

my survival training:survive wif only $20 for 3wks
current status:$7 remaining(forgot whr the hell i spend my $3 liao)
8 days remaining...
im truly broke...

too sad to feel happy

2008-04-07T10:10:00.000-07:00

12 months a yr.....4 weeks a mth....7 days a wk....24hours a dy....60 minutes an hr...60seconds a min.....approx 29030400 sec in a yr....let me ask u this 1 simple qn....is this enough for u????time is something tat we desire...but it is oso something tat we will take advantage of...nothing in this world can allow u to increase the time u have...regret is a sign of time wastage....do not look back...for it is alrdy the past.....use ur remaining time wisely....n u will find urself satisfied...not bcos time is used efficiently.....but bcos u manage to achieve something in such a short time....time is nvr enough....life is always short.....

my survival training:survive wif only $20 for 3wks....
current status:$12 remaining(manage to cheat $4 frm my sis...but lost $12 for school stuff)
14 days remaining.....
im really broke....

the sad sad joker

2008-04-04T06:18:00.000-07:00

dam tired la....haiz.....dun feel like slpin....dun i wanna slp....dunno wth m i typin....today my fren juz intro me a new game,mhf2....super hard sia...so hard until i feel tat playin tat game makes me waste my time....but...i muz look foward to the challenge...quoted by the famous ck....haiz...spend my whole wkend playin tat game???nah....i still have a mountain of hw need to do...wth sia....juz realise i cant catch up with my studies....wad to do ah....die le....but i still dun hav the feel to do hw leh.....gg le....haiz...jc life...seriously cannot take it sia...but i hav to admit....not slpin is fun...i stayed up all nite to do my pw.....shiok sia...its like goin to sch 2 times in 1 day....haha...

i spend 10 full min searchin for something....i realised i forgot wad i wanna search for...but i still carried on searchin....den i gave up...the next thing i knew....i alrdy found wad i was searching for...

my survival training.....survive wif only $20 for 3 weeks....
current status:$20 remaining(confirm $10 gone on next mon)
17 days remaining.....
im seriously broke......

more crazy photos taken by me when im in a 'dunno wad the hell im thinking' mode....

the sad sad work

2008-04-02T11:11:00.000-07:00

here i m blogging while trying to chiong for my pw.....its seriosuly crap sia...at 1st i tot pw is a no kick subject....but i was so dam bloody wrg...here i m tryin to squeeze out every drop of my brain juice for pw.....while bloggin.....ahhhhhhhhh....crap la....lets not slp n hope tat snow will come....im seriosul mad.....

a sad achievement

2008-03-30T05:12:00.000-07:00

today is manage to run 10 laps ard the neighbourhood w/o stoppin for even a sec(8km i think).....i tot i couldnt make it....but somehow i juz kept on running at a constant pace....n i did it wow....but...haiz....i forgot all the stuff needed for my lecture test tml.....forgot everything....n im very sure my legs gonna hurt tml....haiz.....feel like dyin....i achieved something.....but somehow i dun feel happy abt it....lets juz hope tat i can make it thru for the test tml....

sakura is sadness

2008-03-28T07:20:00.000-07:00

5 centimeters per second...the speed at which sakura petals are falling.....sakura represents happiness....but it can oso represent loneliness n separation.....every1 have to experience separations in their life.....tats wad makes life meaningful....but somehow it makes life sad....very sad.....u will noe the feeling of loneliness only when u noe how it feels like to be happy.....learning abt happiness is the cause of loneliness....wad we can do now is only to cherish the moments wif the ppl ard us.....n not trying to regret wad u hav done.....forgive....n nobody will rmb the wrongs tat u did....

my sad sad time....

2008-03-26T05:44:00.000-07:00

pissed off....seriously pissed off....tis is the 1st time i waited 45min for a dam freakin bus....actually can reach home b4 the sun set...but the dam stupid freakin bus made me reach home late.....dam the stupid bus....dam the stupid driver....waste my dam bloody time....haiz....the bus driver seriously dam stupid somemore....behind got so much space but he dun wanna ask them to move....he juz stare at us squeezing each other....stupid driver....haiz....typical singaporeans.....

the sad randomness

2008-03-24T04:29:00.000-07:00

after hearing a real life story....somehow i feel sad....somehow i feel motivated.theres a lot of stuff tat i have not realised up till now....it seriously touch my heart....seriously dunno wad to say....

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maybe im skilled to be a physician.....ya maybe i have the potential......i rly have the talent....i noe im gd at it......physician.....hmmm......

sad?no......today only!!!

2008-03-21T07:22:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHH....MY CONNECTION IS FINALLY HERE!!!!!EVERYTHING IS SO FAST!!!!!!!hav to wait for so long for 1 webpage to load everytime...cos usin vodafone....haiz so happy....1st time write 2 post in 1 day somemore....ahhhhhhhhh.....so happy la.....

the very sad sad sound

2008-03-21T04:45:00.000-07:00

i can hear it whenver im at home...i can hear it echo in my mind....i can hear it no matter wad happens....i can hear it even in my room...i can hear it even now.....the very sad sad sound...i seriously dunno wad to do sia...my life is like a tv drama...the only diff is tat theres no director to tell me wad to do next.....

Money is the root of all sadness

2008-03-17T08:46:00.001-07:00

i hav came to realise tat im too poor for SRJC...my money start decreasing like hell ever since i came to srjc....money for lecture notes...money for tutorials....money for txtbks....money for ASPIRE...money for lockers....money for uniforms...money for god noes wad(i think gos oso dunno)....i gonna declare bankrupt soon....haiz...now i even hav to spend money to celebrate for my frenz bday....money for cake...money for presents....seriously cannot take it le....money is a limiting factor...veryvery limited....very very sad....

Whoever is interested in sharing the cost for the gift(i dunno y but somehow ur interested)...pls inform me...i will be more den happy to accept ur generosity....i need to save money...if not hav to declare war le

Note: im not blamin my frenz abt their bdays...ya i noe bdays r meant to celebrate....but i seriously have to save money...

a very sad n TIRED day sia

2008-03-16T06:40:00.000-07:00

freaking tired today....juz realise tat i can actually survive without sleeping for a day.....i still remember last time i can die if i dun hav at least 4hrs of slp a day....truly can die 1....haiz....last day of holiday le.....why why why....dam fast sia.....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....the thought of wearing the stupid uniform for tml makes me wanna get mc tml...stupid uniform....stupid ideas....stupid design....stupid school.....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh dam tired la.....

the sad sad moment

2008-03-13T07:29:00.000-07:00

all i can say is today is a freaking boring day.No electricity,no entertainment,dun hav the feel to do hw,moreover its raining outside,cant even go out.....stone in my room for 3 hrs....didnt noe i could break my own record for the longest time to stone.....felt dam dizzy after tat cos blood is not flowing into my brain(i think)...hope this day will end soon...cant believe im hopin a holiday to end faster...i must have gone mad......ya.....i have gone mad......

taken today...ya i have truly gone mAD....

a very sad fact

2008-03-10T08:05:00.000-07:00

Seasonal affective disorder (SAD), also known as winter depression, is a mood disorder. Most SAD sufferers experience normal mental health throughout most of the year, but experience depressive symptoms in the winter. When the depressive symptoms occur in summer rather than winter, the condition is often referred to as reverse seasonal affective disorder (RSAD) and can include heightened anxiety.The most common symptoms of SAD include extreme fatigue, oversleeping, not being able to get out of bed, overeating, carbohydrate cravings and weight gain. It can also be accompanied by the regular symptoms of depression, such as low mood, loss of interest in activities and trouble concentrating.Seriously a very sad sad fact....

burning in a sad sad nite

2008-03-08T07:48:00.000-08:00

back to my old sch n realise how much i have missed the days in NPCC.Missed the time wif my buddies,missed the time with my juniors,missed the time wif my seniors,missed the time wif the officers.Memories is something we all will have n tat wad makes us human.Even when the stars are shining brightly,the darkness at the basketball court covers us.But memories wif my ex-squadmates came back to reality as the campfire's burning........

burning in a very dark nite

the world of sadness

2008-02-26T02:48:00.000-08:00

is life interesting???wads ur ans to it....a simple qn....but u will nvr find the ans to it...even if u found the ans....ask urself....is tat really true...life can be as complicated as it gets....but theres one thing we hav to do no matter wads the ans.....dare to look back.....our future cannot be predicted....but our past can be seen....

the feeling of sadness

2008-02-15T05:33:00.000-08:00

a choice is made n it have to be done....i cant say wad choice i have made but i seriously dunno whether i hav regreted makin tat choice...obviously my descision is a very wrg 1...but somehow i dun feel the guilt in my heart.....since when hav i became like this...since when did i start walkin the wrg path...since when did i change.....i tot of this even till now....but i somehow cant find the ans....now i only juz hope tat things will not worsen.....

a sad truth

2008-02-12T03:41:00.000-08:00

back to school....everything back to the way it was....even though CNY is still not over...but somehow i dun feel the atmosphere of it anymore....a very fun and high person....tats who i am in sch....had alot of fun wif my frenz....but i noe tat this is not the way i acted when i was wif my family......its like i have 2 personalities.....i have no choice but to sometimes ask myself....which one is the real me......

never too sad to feel alive

2008-02-09T05:36:00.001-08:00

going to my relatives' house seems like a normal thing to do during CNY....but is eating steamboat everyday a normal thing to do in CNY?whats the meaning of family reunion dinner??issit juz a dinner where all the family members get together to have their dinner together???i started to doubt that as i juz had dinner with my family and relatives.....after many months of not seeing each other....the dinner juz somehow feel very quiet.....the liveliness that we had a few yrs back seem to be missing.....today's life is too complicated for us to control.....this is what i thought of as i ate my dinner quietly and slowly...

the sad way of thinking

2008-02-07T06:04:00.000-08:00

the 1st day of CNY...hong baos start to fill my secret hiding compartment....but somehow this yeasr CNY doesnt feel like any normal CNY....the feeling is juz very weird....as i stood at the balcony lookin at the stars....a question came across my mind...why does good things only happen to the ppl around me???as i spend the whole night pondering over it....i finally came to a conclusion...good things does not happen to the good ppl...it happen to hardworking ppl...a sad look on my face as i knew that why this does not happen to me...

a sad sad guy living in a sad sad world

2008-02-06T05:45:00.000-08:00

the start of a sad sad blog....haha...ok maybe not that sad.....heard creating a blog can improve my english....ya i sux in my english....so i decided to make this blog....apaarently so far im only talking to myself.....but somehow i feel very comfortable.....truly a sad sad guy living in a sad sad world.....